My Cherished World Chapter 5 Summary
Sotomayor’s dad dies in April of the year she turns 9. She and Junior return house from school to discover their apartment or condo filled with mourning loved ones. Junior asks where their father is, and Celina states, “God took him” (49 ). Sotomayor understands this means he has died but does not understand what it implies to die. Did he “become a spirit” (49 )? She does not understand what she is “expected to feel, or say, or do” (49 ). She signs up with the chorus of weeping then throws herself on her bed. Celina’s pal Ana informs her she should stop crying and be strong for her mother.
Sotomayor right away stops weeping. She bears in mind that early morning how her daddy had wished to make a breakfast of pancakes since he was not going to go to work. Celina had chewed out him to go back to bed if he was too ill for work. Abuelita sobs constantly, which is “unbearably unpleasant” for Sotomayor (50 ). Abuelita’s grief takes in Sotomayor and fills her with worry that her granny will “never more than happy once again” and that she will pass away, too (51 ). Celina is mute and unresponsive. After the funeral service, Titi Aurora informs Sotomayor to kiss her father and touch his hand.
Sotomayor does not want to however also does not want to additional upset Abuelita. The “grainy white face” looks like however is not her dad, and she understands that he will never return. She likewise recognizes that this is “where Papi was heading” with his drinking, and it might “be much easier” for her, Junior, and Celina to go “along without him” (51 ). They do the rosary for seven nights, praying and crying. On the last night, Sotomayor drops off to sleep while stating the prayers and wakes up to hear her mom angrily confronting Abuelita, saying “you can’t do this” and threatening to never ever let Abuelita see Sotomayor once again (52 ).
She later on learns that, in her sleep, she had spoken in a voice Abuelita and other relatives acknowledged as “Abuelita’s long-dead sibling” providing news that Juli was safe and with her (52 ). Sotomayor never ever experienced anything like that prior to or because and notes, “it’s difficult to separate what they spoke with what they wished to hear” (52 ). She wanted to comfort her granny, but Abuelita’s desire to develop what she views as Sotomayor’s gift upsets Celina, who threatens to keep Sotomayor from her.
After the funeral, Celina is too upset to return to their old home. They relocate to a various one within the Bronxdale complex. When their uncles help them move, they discover empty alcohol bottles all over. Abuelita and Juli’s sis blame Celina for his drinking. Sotomayor acknowledges that her mom’s actions intensified tensions. Celina said “all the incorrect things,” but her mom “didn’t make him consume anymore than she could make him stop”: “he was the only one responsible” (53-54).
Sotomayor recalls her daddy sitting at the window watching out and imagining what the future would bring, how empty lots would establish. Yet for one of those moments “were numerous more long hours of sadness” as he stared silently “at a city and a life that slowly strangled him” (54 ). On the day he died, Sotomayor had actually thought of him arbitrarily at recess, “like the barest shadow of a state of mind passing over, or a breeze so completely soft that absolutely nothing relocations” (54 ). She questions if perhaps that was her dad “saying goodbye” (54 ).